What if?
I had never heard of this Ascension path? Would I have been better off? Would
I be in an asylum - what with all these down-up crazy symptoms.
Did I have a choice?
I had a group of solid "metaphysical" friends, teachers and mentors back in
the late 90's into the early 2000's............we went to classes together, had
gatherings, reiki healing circles, full moon ceremonies, we played
together and prayed together.
I look at my metaphysical years as my teaching years; the years I spent
gathering an arsenal of tools to assist on the journey.
.......and then my life took a turn. While most other's continued on their
metaphysical journey, I veered off onto the ascension path.
How the hell did I get here?
Not only did I lose my community but I became a hermit. I don't know
how it's possible to ascend and NOT be a hermit. The masters and sages
went off into caves to get through this part of the journey, trust me, if
I could go off into a cave, that's exactly where I need to be.
I was listening to a video from Michelle Manders, she recently
went from New Age guru, to ditching everything and turning to the Bible,
similar to Doreen Virtue. Oh, there's a trend happening here.
She actually burned all her books, tarot cards and swore off astrology,
which was her forte - along with channeling Mary Magdalene, Kuthumi, etc.
She said this: Metaphysics is about God's creations, not about God.
This totally resonated with me.
But this really brought stuff up for me and it was revealing.......First off one
of the very first things that happened to me when I found myself on
the ascension timeline was that I merged - the spiritual and metaphysical.
I integrated these aspects, after separating them for so long.
But what was revealing to me was that when I was listening to Michelle I
realized how in the darkest moments, although I have a million tools
in my toolkit(healing modalities, rituals, etc)
I will always turn to the rosary - which undoubtedly comes from my Christian
up-bringing. Yes, in the darkest hour it is God, Jesus or Mary that I turn to.
I really find that very curious. Not sure what it fully means yet.
I'm not sure where I read this but it also rings true........we have to descend
(incend) to ascend. It seems to be a plausible explanation for the down-up
ascension path.
I have to say, knowing just doesn't seem to make this journey
any easier.