When the Pain Gets Too Much

When the pain gets too much...........was the topic of conversation at my

last session with the Shaman.

First off you KNOW already, you can feel your SOUL screaming

at you.  But you just don't know what to do or how to do it.

What is my purpose?  I know there's more I'm supposed

to be doing.  But that something more always seems so far

out of reach.

It's truly amazing when you have a discussion with a

like minded being.  She says to me:

So, were you always the target?  As if you've been beat up

your whole life?  You walk into a room and there's that

one person that gets in your face, or that boss, or that

parent...........

.......and as I did a quick scan of my life, I can honestly say

YES to all her questions.

Do you not know that you've always been Love, always

been Light and have acted as a trigger your whole life?

You are doing what your supposed to do, you always have been.

You mean my whole life I've been this punching bag and

that's what I was supposed to be?

Well yes, but the challenge is to be able to

overcome these obstacles and still remain Love and Light.

Yes, but it's getting harder and harder to do.  I was clearly

thrown out of 3d back in 2009 and I've been struggling

ever since.  Struggling with basic survival issues. I'm

worn out from it. 

Yes, well the pain will get too much until you step

into who you're really meant to be and what you're really

meant to be doing.

So here we are back to zero again..........exactly, so what

is it I'm meant to be?

You're a healer of course and healing comes through in

many different ways.  It comes down to how you want to 
express that healing; through actual hands on, artistically,
through music - how do you want to bring this healing?
It's the ability to find your way and until 
you do, the pain will keep getting worse.

I can feel the truth of her words in my solar plexus, But,

But, But..........I lack the self confidence to step into

a "healer" role. My family has no idea that I'm this other

person......

She burst out laughing..........Trust me your family knows,

your friends know, everyone knows. You're the one

that's denying who you really are.

Wow, that landed like a ton of bricks! 

What you resist, persists.........and it hurts.

Portable Solar Panel

While I skipped through my imaginary live in an RV
moment - Article Here
I kept reading about all sorts of gizmos to make
your life just a little more easier.

I LOVE this 15w portable solar panel! I live in Florida
so this little guy would work perfectly and I've also
been in my share of hurricanes- and the ensuing aftermath of
no electric!   The worst that I can remember is losing power
for 3 weeks.  Not fun!

This 15w portable solar panel is about to make
my life simpler and safer.  I will be adding
this unit to my hurricane emergency supplies, so
that I will always have a way to charge up
my cell phone, tablet or kindle.

Shaman Session #2

I am loving my sessions with the Shaman!

You can read about my first visit here: Article Here

This time around I asked about the healing

sticks that she uses.  Her sticks are Native American made and

have been passed around from one healer to another.

She told me to hold one of the sticks, this one was a rainmaker

variety - and all I can tell you is that the stick was pulsing in my

hands.  The sticks are used to draw out the negativity and she

believes that the stick acts as a tool to absorb this energy, thereby

protecting herself from taking on the energy.

I love this and I understand this totally!  I know that my reiki

master was fastidious washing her hands and arms up to her elbows,

to protect herself from absorbing lingering energies.  Energies that

she didn't want to take on herself.

So I went on a hunt for my very own rainmaker stick and I came

across this lovely tool. I know this is not an original healing

stick, but I believe it can be used as a tool to transmit

healing energies.  The divine works in 

mysterious ways and I know that I am simply a 

conduit for the energy to flow.

Whenever I approach a healing this is my mantra:

Holy, holy Spirit, use me, use me, use me as a channel for healing

The Mandela Effect

Yes, I'm an effected.

I really don't recall Nelson Mandela dying in 1991 and then dying

again in 2013, it just seemed to be outside my awareness at the time.

But this memory glitch will mark the beginning of the Mandela Effect

and a group of people who have unexplained memories.

I became fully aware of the Mandela Effect about three years ago

and yes, I remember all the typical glitches notably found all over

the internet.

Mirror, mirror on the wall

Fruitloops

Berenstein Bears

of course the rest of the world remembers

Magic mirror on the wall

Frootloops

Berenstain Bears

But this goes so much deeper..........the Bible.

yes, it always said and the lion shall lay down with the lamb 

and now it says

the wolf will lay down with the lamb

WHAT IS GOING ON HERE..........

There are serious groups diving deep into this material.  Were there

a group of people plopped down in a parallel earth?  Is there an

outside - Divine or AI force that's making these changes

to WAKE US UP? In truth to Shake Us Up!

and why are there just a few who are aware of the changes?

A few weeks ago at a family event I asked four elders in our family

Who laid down with the lamb as stated in the bible.........

each one of them said "the lion".........and only one out of

the four was curious about the Bible saying wolf.  They all blew it off 

as if they had been mistaken. These are people who regularly read

the bible as part of their daily lives.........and still they remain

un-effected!  Amazing to me!

The Mandela Effect shows up in my life on a daily basis.  Words

being spelled differently.........wow, that's huge.  For instance, the

word Judgment........huh, for me it was always spelled

JUDGEMENT!  

The Mandela Effect is not something that can be taught, you either get

it or you don't.  The remaining question is that for us who do get it - 

what the heck does it mean?

Imagination Run WIld!

I've been seriously looking into alternative ways to live for the past week or so. 

I really dove in deep looking at websites, youtube and reading a few ebooks.  

I had everything planned out in my mind and how good it would feel

to unburden myself of STUFF that I no longer use or need..........just stuff. 

Mostly I'm concentrating on lowering my cost of living.  

So I found this youtube channel CheapRVLiving and it opened up a

new world to me!  I thought wow, I think I could do this.  Normal everyday

people living in Vans, RV's, Trailers.  From this channel I found

several women with their own youtube channels.  We're talking women

55+ out in the wilderness on their own or traveling to meet-ups.

The theory is to no longer have to pay a mortgage, save all this money

and travel to free places to stay; BLM Lands, free State Parks or

National Parks.  What I found is that some people go the pay route where they

settle in for a month or two with electric access and water hook-ups - but

then it's like paying a mortgage, kind of defeats the purpose.

I am following Carolyn's RV Life, she's 50+, has an RV and works from 

the road.  I was really convinced that this was an option for me.  I could

see myself selling everything I own, minimizing down to nothing except

for the absolutes and choosing this new free lifestyle.

That is until 11:30 last night when I cam upon a video that Carolyn

did where she went into the Ocala National Forest - alone, to camp for free.

I've been to the Ocala National Forest and stayed in a cabin - and let

me tell you I was scared to death and on the verge of hyperventilating!

  Most of the roads are not paved,

there is no way to turn around and no option but to continue driving,

and yes you have visions of that movie Deliverance!

So there's Carolyn in her 29' RV in the month of July,

parked in the middle of the Forest.  The temp is 85 with 100%

humidity and she's just dying..........and let me tell you, there's

no air flow in the deep forests of Ocala!

She decides to finally kick on her generator to get some

A/C going...........and it doesn't work.  You can see the sheer

panic in her face (that was the moment I decided there's

no way I could do this).  I think her bigger concern was for her

dog Capone as he was having a really hard time in the heat.

Just as night fell she had to make her escape out of the woods,

there was no way she could make it through the night without

air conditioning.

Oh my God............what was I thinking????

Oh well, now to continue the alternative lifestyle hunt..........

 

Etheric Waves

Well March 18th came and went without the rainbow waves as predicted - well atleast

not that we could visually see.

All the hype..............and here we are!

Although there's no denying that the energies have been off the

charts for over a week now.  New Moon?  Spring Equinox?

Really there were days I felt like I was crawling out of my skin,

not a good feeling especially coupled with lack of sleep.

Life always seems to just roll along.............and along!

So I find myself disconnecting from all and trying to return to

my center point/zero point, from this advantage things just

seem clearer and more balanced.  This way I can let the

hype come and go without knocking me off center.

Even though I know I've done tremendous work on myself

these past 10 years, I also feel as though I lost the last 10

years of my life.  It's as though I totally focused on the

spiritual and let everything else just go in my life.  I don't

think that's how it's suppose to be, that doesn't feel

very balanced to me.

So back to zero...........and where do I go from here?

Allison Coe

Allison Coe Q&A "The Event" - March 12, 2018

Who doesn't love Allison Coe..........talk about genuine, authentic

 and beyond light filled!

This was a great show from Joy Ride Radio

Allison Coe digs deeper into the shift.........

and here we go!

Here I Go Down the Rabbit Hole

Sometimes these rabbit hole excursions are quite rewarding!

I'm loving a youtube channel that I've been visiting recently:

Unbiased On The Fence

Through this channel I've been introduced to SAM.

Have you made contact yet?

The Universe is always trying to talk to us, are

you listening?

Illuminating

A few nights ago I was listening to a radio program and the host said

something about the "sun" and suggested to get yourself outside and

take a pic of our sun..........so I did and yes, it's amazing.

The sun is outlined in chartruese(a very light muted green) and then

we can see the huge pink rays coming off the sun.  Well of course

the green & pink are representative of the heart chakra.

So I went on a quest to find an old picture of the sun - the yellow/

orange sun that we all know and I simply could not find

a pic anywhere.  Now that is bizarre!  So all we have is

our memory of what the sun use to look like!

Oh and I just loved the little orb that appeared!

I wonder if people are paying attention.............

March CAME IN Like a Lion

March CAME IN Like a Lion...........

Wowsers........seriously!  Last Friday I was pummeled and

I had an instant memory of childhood sledding and

bone weary tiredness.  Yes, that's what these energies

remind me of.  It's as if someone is holding me down, saying

"don't move" just stay in place.

Consume the light - transmute the darkness

oh and there's been much to transmute. My father is dying

a slow death.  There's not a part of his body that hasn't been

cut into, surgery after surgery.  At 87 years old, his children

have begged him to stop these medical interventions.  It's not that

we want him to die, but we are so sick of watching him suffer.

My father, is actually my step father.  He came into my life when

I was 4.  He was the only father I had known and he wasn't good to me.

Sunday I called him in the hospital to see how he was doing before

his scheduled surgery Monday morning to remove a tumor from

his bladder.

He said to me:

From my soul I ask for your forgiveness, you were a

sweet little girl and I was mean to you and I know it

affected your whole life.  I didn't want to have a 

ready made family but I fell in love with your Mom and

you were part of the package and I was awful to you

your entire childhood.

This was a healing and brought a release for the both of us. 

Amazing really, the first 18 years of my life were horrific, but

I know as a lightworker that I placed myself in that situation

for my growth and his. I forgave him years ago not wanting to

carry that pain around with me.  

His acknowledgement set me FREE and I'm sure it

set him free too, a cutting of cords.

Let's hope March becomes just a little more gentle!

 

March 2018 Full Moon