When the pain gets too much...........was the topic of conversation at my
last session with the Shaman.
First off you KNOW already, you can feel your SOUL screaming
at you. But you just don't know what to do or how to do it.
What is my purpose? I know there's more I'm supposed
to be doing. But that something more always seems so far
out of reach.
It's truly amazing when you have a discussion with a
like minded being. She says to me:
So, were you always the target? As if you've been beat up
your whole life? You walk into a room and there's that
one person that gets in your face, or that boss, or that
parent...........
.......and as I did a quick scan of my life, I can honestly say
YES to all her questions.
Do you not know that you've always been Love, always
been Light and have acted as a trigger your whole life?
You are doing what your supposed to do, you always have been.
You mean my whole life I've been this punching bag and
that's what I was supposed to be?
Well yes, but the challenge is to be able to
overcome these obstacles and still remain Love and Light.
Yes, but it's getting harder and harder to do. I was clearly
thrown out of 3d back in 2009 and I've been struggling
ever since. Struggling with basic survival issues. I'm
worn out from it.
Yes, well the pain will get too much until you step
into who you're really meant to be and what you're really
meant to be doing.
So here we are back to zero again..........exactly, so what
is it I'm meant to be?
You're a healer of course and healing comes through in
many different ways. It comes down to how you want to
express that healing; through actual hands on, artistically,
through music - how do you want to bring this healing?
It's the ability to find your way and until
you do, the pain will keep getting worse.
express that healing; through actual hands on, artistically,
through music - how do you want to bring this healing?
It's the ability to find your way and until
you do, the pain will keep getting worse.
I can feel the truth of her words in my solar plexus, But,
But, But..........I lack the self confidence to step into
a "healer" role. My family has no idea that I'm this other
person......
She burst out laughing..........Trust me your family knows,
your friends know, everyone knows. You're the one
that's denying who you really are.
Wow, that landed like a ton of bricks!
What you resist, persists.........and it hurts.