March CAME IN Like a Lion...........
Wowsers........seriously! Last Friday I was pummeled and
I had an instant memory of childhood sledding and
bone weary tiredness. Yes, that's what these energies
remind me of. It's as if someone is holding me down, saying
"don't move" just stay in place.
Consume the light - transmute the darkness
oh and there's been much to transmute. My father is dying
a slow death. There's not a part of his body that hasn't been
cut into, surgery after surgery. At 87 years old, his children
have begged him to stop these medical interventions. It's not that
we want him to die, but we are so sick of watching him suffer.
My father, is actually my step father. He came into my life when
I was 4. He was the only father I had known and he wasn't good to me.
Sunday I called him in the hospital to see how he was doing before
his scheduled surgery Monday morning to remove a tumor from
his bladder.
He said to me:
From my soul I ask for your forgiveness, you were a
sweet little girl and I was mean to you and I know it
affected your whole life. I didn't want to have a
ready made family but I fell in love with your Mom and
you were part of the package and I was awful to you
your entire childhood.
This was a healing and brought a release for the both of us.
Amazing really, the first 18 years of my life were horrific, but
I know as a lightworker that I placed myself in that situation
for my growth and his. I forgave him years ago not wanting to
carry that pain around with me.
His acknowledgement set me FREE and I'm sure it
set him free too, a cutting of cords.
Let's hope March becomes just a little more gentle!