Sorrow Over a Loss

I've been working with this lovely Tea Leaf card deck by Rae Hepburn.

It's a great set of cards.......all 180 of them!  A little bulky to handle but can be managed!

Every Monday morning I choose 7 cards for the up-coming week.  They've been

so so as far as accuracy but I am enjoying the ritual part of setting time aside

to do this layout.

The card for today is Wreath - Sorrow over a loss.

In my neck of the woods it's 8am, so one would think I should

wait the day out to see what this loss could possibly be.  But I

already know.

The LOSS is me..........the loss of me, the old me.  So many

emotions have been rising in recent days due to the energies

and I'm sure the full moon got it's whack in as well.  Yes,

the mourning has been there beneath the surface for who

I was, what I did in life, what I lost - and what I gained.  Loss

of dreams , blah, blah, blah.  So this card feels most

appropriate for me today.

In these new now moment 5d energies the hardest part for me

has been letting go of dreams, goal setting, planning - anything

to do with the future.  That's been outrageously hard!  I wobble

with this one constantly.  It's a conditioning thing.  I always found

my energy by into jumping into the next "future" project, career move,

something.............and now I have to consciously stop myself and to

me it feels like a loss of hope, like I'm stuck.  But this only arises

when I'm not creating.  When I'm in creative mode I feel connected

to source, to bliss, to nothingness, to joy and then all feels right in

the world!  The moment I step out of those 5d creative energies - boom,

face on floor groveling!

Oh well on to brighter days!

I came across Fay Strachan's youtube site where she works with

all kinds of card decks and that's where I was introduced 

to my little Tea Leaf cards.

 

Full Moon May 29, 2018

Taking Care of YOU!

wow!  This is a must listen; Todd Medina and Lisa Brown Conversation.

It took me three attempts to get through the whole replay at 4 hours long!

The take away message for me was:  To take care of yourself or your energy

will get depleted - oh yes, I know this one!  

So many times at the end of the day when I know I should hop

into the tub for a sea salt bath.........my ego/mind comes up with

every reason why I shouldn't.  There were times that I would

at the very least pull out my foot bath, add some salts and just

let the energies of the day pour down and out. But recently I've

been so depleted that there's been little energy to do a thing.

But NOW is the time to take care of you, to carve out the

time you need to do just that.  This includes creative time.

My creativity comes in bursts...........either I'm all in or not.

So I'm trying to find a balance with this as well.

The 5d energies that we're all so longing for are here right now.

It's whether or not you want to step into them.  Whether you

want to see the magic.  Whether you want to operate "as if",

because that's what it's going to take to start bringing them

into your life.  

I've had moments of these energies but have

been unable to sustain them and I so wish I could be like

Lisa and spend the day in bed directing my empire!  Not

going to happen, but I can take slow steps into that direction.

Well I have taken some steps this year..........working from home,

which does allow me to set my time, rest when needed and

the ability to start a creative project.

I'm also very conscious of falling into victim/self suffering - oh yes,

ascension symptoms are very real, sometimes debilitating,

sometimes frightening - when it feels like a bolt of

lightening just went up your leg. Your mind goes to:

ok, this is it, I'm dying with some weird illness. But

Lisa says and I agree, that every single symptom, illness,

disease is here to help us, appears for our growth and

most times we cannot see the bigger picture to understand

why it's so.  So there's a huge trust element.

I also loved her take on the Dark Night of the Soul......she says

it's really the Dark Night of the Ego - speaking from

experience this is so true!  Besides being brought to my knees, losing

EVERYTHING in my world, you're brought to a point of

surrendering and letting go, whether you want to or not.  In

retrospect I'm able to see the bigger picture, but not while I

was in it!

So please, take care of yourself as we weave our way through

these new energies.

Current Transformative Energies

 Are you feeling it?

My eyes simply won't focus, feels like I'm in a cloudy haze.

My sleep is restless, waking every 2-3 hours........coming wide awake.

A little nausea, nothing dramatic.

A low grade headache just lingering beneath the surface.

Ringing in the ears.

Hearing music from the celestial realms while trying to fall asleep.

Feet burning and or tingling, same with arms and hands.
Body heat, which I call energy rushes
Feeling of being in a void - not here, not there
In a highly creative stage.
Feeling kind of loopie like I'm floating through the motions
of daily life........and I can't remember a thing from
one second to the next.

...........and the list goes on!

Linda Good McGillis did an unbelievable video dated May 8, 2018.

You can find her on facebook.

Here are a few tidbits from her wisdom and insight:

As of tomorrow Uranus transits into Taurus and 

enters a 7 year cycle, this is the time to

build a New Foundation of:

Safety

Security

Protection

Stability

It's time move into Inter-dependency not Co-dependency.

The Uranus 7 year cycle means that everything that is
inflexible will become flowing an flexible. (It's gonna
be a rough time for us Taurus folks - who just hate
change).

Everything that is not holy and pure will be shaken to it's
core.

We need to change the current dogma of spirituality.  We're
now the scribes, writing the new ancient texts for
spirituality.

This is the time of mastering your mastery.


There is so much more.......checkout the video!

Dance through it gracefully

Taurus New Moon, May 15, 2018

Dealing with Guilt and Shame

Something huge has come to the surface to be dealt with.  It's not a topic I've

seen discussed.  But it's here in my face.....

GUILT and I'm slowly making my way through the process of clearing.

Like many on this spiritual path I've had to detach from family and

friends in order to stay true to my path.  Which was not easy to do.

I come from a rather large Irish family with 21 first cousins!  We grew

up together - they were my best childhood friends.  I'm one of

the older cousins aka the babysitter for the younger ones.  Let's just

say I was involved with all 21 cousins in one way or another

throughout my life.

But that all changed 10 years ago for me when I dropped out, I was

no longer available to run off to family reunions, weddings or

major events in my family.  During this 10 year period I was

knee deep in my dark night of the soul, finances were scarce, 

I looked like hell and couldn't even sustain a conversation

if I tried.  The old me was gone.

The new me is protective of my space, in a place of

hermit-ting and finances are still scarce but I make due. My

past is a far off memory at this point in time.

So, what does one do when there's a death in the family?

Last week my Uncle died (my Mom's brother) and there was

a flurry of phone calls and expectations from family that

I be present for the wake and funeral. Mind you it was a

1,000 miles away.  But I held strong that I needed to

stay put.  I sent messages to my cousins who had lost

their father.  Sent condolences to their mother......but I

remained detached.

............and now Guilt and shame has reared it's ugly head along with many

other deprecating feelings.  Let's just say I've opened a can

of worms, that just one week ago were not in my

consciousness.

I'll also note that while my uncle was dying, my Mom was

in the hospital having just suffered a heart attack.  Yes, I

was with my Mom through her 10 day healing  process

in the hospital and then there for her when she came home.

I guess what I'm saying is that I had a valid reason that

I could not hop on a plane and travel a 1,000 miles to

be with family, but more than that I didn't want to, I couldn't 

step into the family dynamics, couldn't step into the

pain of it all, couldn't just re-emerge after 10 years

of detaching.

Wow, this is one hell of a trip.  So now I find myself

steeped in guilt.........although I'm trying to really

pull myself out of these feelings. This experience has

brought up so much for me that needed to be

cleared.

I have to keep bring myself back to the present

moment, it's the only way to rise above.

To thine own self be true.

Gritting my Teeth

Gritting my teeth and trying so hard not to!

I'm a May baby and all this talk about Uranus entering Taurus..........it's been

84 years since this last transit, well it's got me a little uncomfortable.

I can feel the energy already......or could be the new moon too on top of it.

New Moon May 15th, Uranus moves into Taurus May 16th.

To be honest I've never really been able to wrap my head around

astrology.  Like everything else, it's a guide

So I decided to get my transits chart done for the upcoming year; it

wasn't as bad as I expected.  There will be some very rough days

but overall there will be positive energy flowing.  

For instance the transit for today May 10th:  Mercury Trine Pluto

There is great depth to your conversations.  You find yourself

revealing secrets or very private matters and also asking very

penetrating questions of others.  Superficial answers don't satisfy

you now.  This is an excellent time to investigate a complex

problem or mystery, look for something that has been lost or

hidden and also learn more about your own inner depths.

I suppose a transit chart is like a daily horoscope but it is

based on your birth date, time and place of birth. 

.......yes, the chart is computer generated, 50-60 pages and

gives a daily snippet of what to expect. It's well worth $22.00.

This is where I ordered my report 

Get Ready for the New Moon - Uranus in Taurus

Seven Spiritual Laws

The Seven Spiritual Laws, the KEYS that form the essence of right living.

The Law of Abundance

The law of abundance states that whenever we give unselfishly

of ourselves, our time, or our mental resources, blessings will

return to us many times over.  The benefits of this law

do not necessarily come back in terms of dollars

and cents; they come by way of good health, the

blessings of good friends, or opportunities for

advancement in one's vocation.

The Law of Attraction

The law of attraction means that "like attracts like".

People of similar interests are attracted to each other

and become friends.  This law is activated by the

vibrations we create with our thoughts and actions.

The Law of Compensation

The law of compensation tells us that every thought

or action carries its own consequences.  "As ye sow,

so shall ye reap".

The Law of Balance

The law of balance states that all our activities need

a counterpart.  A balance should exist between

work and play; between the physical and the

mental; and between the spiritual and the material.

W ensure a healthy body and mind when we

maintain such a balance.

The Law of Cause and Effect

The Law of Cause and Effect reminds us that

nothing is ever lost.  The smallest thought or

action creates a reaction. It is important to

study reason and motive in every situation and

then draw the spiritual conclusion.

The Law of Freedom

The law of freedom gives us our free will and

power of choice. We are responsible for our own

future and we shape that future by making

decisions that only we can be responsible for.

The Law of Love

The law of love is the most powerful of

the spiritual laws.  Love is the creative force of

all life.  The power of love motivates us to do

good things for others.  The law of love exists

in all things and is everywhere.

The Metaphysician's Handbook

Colors in the Aura

The colors of your aura are ever changing based on how you act,

think and feel.

Color Interpretations:

As a general guide

Red - Clear red shows ambition and affection

Dark Red - Passion, courage, hatred, anger (dark shades that are cloudy denote evil, greed

and cruelty)

Reddish Brown - Sensuality

Crimson - Desires and passion

Scarlet - Lust

Orange - Energy, health, vitality, pride

Yellow - Intellect, mental powers (cloudy yellow - suspicion and jealousy

Green - Sympathy and harmony, prosperity (dark green - deceit)

Blue - Inspiration and evotion

Deep Blue - Religious feelings

Light Blue - High ideals, devotion

Indigo - Wisdom

Violet - Spiritual attainment

Pale Lilac - Cosmic consciousness

Grey - (light grey) - Fear, (dark grey) Deceit

Grey & Brown - depression

Brown - Material mind, selfishness

Black - Malice, depravity

Pink - Gentleness, new thought

White - Christ Light 

Auric Color Vibrations

Basic Meaning of the spectrum of colors

Violet - Spiritual power

Indigo - Intuition

Blue - Inspiration

Green - Energy

Yellow - Wisdom

Orange - Health-vitality

Red - Life

Little Grandmother Kiesha Crowther

This was such an awesome interview!

I haven't seen Kiesha Crowther from The Tribe of Many Colors for

quite sometime, so it was refreshing!

Although if you listen to the interview she states that

Gaia needs our crystals - needs the energy of these crystals for her

healing.  Kiesha suggests that we deposit crystals in bodies of

water all over the earth.

Not sure I can part with my crystals!