Will I pass the test?
I've spoken of my best friend and spiritual mentor in previous posts
and as I become clearer, detached and the observer of
life around me, I truly believe that I'm
surmounting one test after another.
I suppose being aware and out of the triggering loop
is a good place to be........so why doesn't it feel good?
So, my friend who has never owned a computer, hasn't
had TV in 20 years, stays out of the mainstream - somehow
manages to get a stream of negative "earth catastrophe"
whenever and wherever it happens!
I'm assumming she's got somekind of weather alert
app on her smart phone and she keeps trying to pull
me into the negativity and I want nothing to do with it.
Gone is the bright eyed girl who would hang on
her every word - as if it was her truth.
Typical update goes like this:
Her: So there was an 8.2 earthquake in Japan
Me: That's nice
Her: You know what this means, the earth
changes are in full swing
Me: Oh that's nice
Her: Are you listening to me
Me: No, not really
Me: I've got to go
I can no longer FEED into this talk. It's not in my
world and I choose to not put my focus on
anything that's not uplifting.
Am I wrong?
I don't know how else to do this dance. If I focus
on all that's wrong in the world, I get depressed, it
affects my physical being.
If I focus on all the good I feel uplifted.
But this dance with my friend is getting harder and
harder. The more I pull back, the stronger she
comes at me. So I truly see this as a test, that I'm
being tested on whether I can stay strong and
hold onto my belief system.
If it feels light, it's right!
Well, I'll have to see how this works out! I believe
the universe has plans for the ending of this
lifelong friendship - I don't see how it can be
any other way - and I feel great sadness over
the loss of my friend.
Sandra Walter speaks of this time as the
bifurcation - the division of something into
two parts.
Sandra Walter speaks of this time as the
bifurcation - the division of something into
two parts.